A Weight Lifted

Tomorrow is my breast reduction surgery.
I have to be at the hospital by 530 am and surgery is at 730am.
The procedure takes about 4 hours and I will spend about 1 1/2 hour in the recovery unit.
I'm not so scared to have surgery. I think what scares me the most is how I will be afterwards.
I can't wait to get this weight off and be pain free. I really think it is going to bring a new outlook on life.
This year, as the years before it, has been full of up and downs. I'm glad to be going out of this year with a bang. I got my snow today and hope for more tomorrow when recovering!
This is a big weight lifted off my shoulders- literally!

The Golden Sunrise at Dawn

Damn..talk about a dry spell!! Forgive me blog, for I have sinned. It has been 6 months since my last post. I recently started the Fall semester and am taking Interpersonal Communication for my massage degree. For our first project we had to put together something that was about us. I made a collage and wrote a poem about me. I wanted to share it and thought, "What better place to share my poem than in my blog?" so..here it is!

The Golden Sunrise at Dawn

She comes from a land down under, but the land of the free has always been what she’s called home. A military brat, this American roo has had her fair share of travel around the home of the brave. She has played in the California sun, been through the Utah snow, tasted the salt of the Florida beaches, and smelled the Arizona desert air. A middle child of 6, attention doesn’t come easy. A somewhat cultural attaché, she cooks like an Italian, drinks like a German, and fights like the Irish. She grew up on America’s favorite pastime and if you listen closely you can hear her battle cry, “No one beats the Bronx Bombers!”

She has overcome mean girls and naughty boys; letting go of their playground taunts. Her dragon now stands watch outside her castle; protecting her outside the stone walls she has built. With a frustrated heart she waits for love. She wears her heart under her sleeve, afraid to show true emotions. Music expresses what words cannot and they flow better through her pen than her mouth; allowing freedom for her much imprisoned thoughts. Her extrovert argues frequently with her introverted self, and they tend to embarrass one another. A unique quality for an introvert, she practices techniques to help release tension kept bottled away.

Unsure of religion she is only acquainted with Jesus. They seem to have an understanding on the existence of each other, but aren’t really sure what one another is about; a strange concept for this former Catholic school girl. The afterlife is something best left alone. She is merely a guest to the ghosts in her home. Ghosts to her are like bees, they won’t sting you if you don’t sting it. But of ghosts, demons, and angels, rejection and loneliness are her greatest fears. Feeling inferior to those around her she knows her life is superior to others less fortunate.

But she is patient and kind. Easily approachable by many, loved platonically by thousands, outgoing to those who know her best, and shy around those who are new to her shell. She is smart, sexy, and fun.

She is….ME!

Dry Spell

I apologize for the delay. I have decided that my dry spell of not blogging is over.
I missed it, so..I'm back. Really I'm just tired of my head talking to much so I'm finally ready to shut it up. I wanted to come back with something fun.
I did this test on Facebook that is suppose to get you to understand yourself better.
It's just one of those many "Who Are You?" or "What's your Hindu name?" quiz type things people send around to everyone.
I just thought I would share.

Dear Oriana Galasso, below are your Personality Tests result:Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Your view on yourself: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵Other people find you very interestingƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨. But you are really hiding your true selfƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. Your friends love you because you are a good listenerƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like seriousƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄, SmartƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄, Determined peopleƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. You don't judge a book by its coverƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship
The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive. So you will find yourself with plenty of dates
Your views on education: Education is less important than the real world out thereƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. Away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working. Earning money. Living on your own
The right job for you: You're a practical person. Will choose a secure job with a steady incomeƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. Knowing what you like to do is importantƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨. Find a regular job doing just thatƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. You'll be set for life
How do you view success: Ƹ̵̡Success in your career is not the most important thing in lifeƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. You are content with what you haveƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. Think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working
What are you most afraid of: Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄You are concerned about your imageƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. The way others see youƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ : This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other peopleƸ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄. It's time for you to believe in who you are. Not what you wear.

Because sometimes..we just need to laugh

When we've had a rough week, all we want to do is laugh.
So, I thought I would post this video. It always makes me laugh, even just listening to the song.
It's by The Lonely Island, they always have a song or skit that makes me laugh.
They work for Saturday Night Live and their skits/music is hilarious.
I give you, RAS TRENT:
http://www.hulu.com/watch/40968/saturday-night-live-digital-short-ras-trent
NOTE**Hulu doesn't have a "post to blogspot" option, sorry.

CAUTION *This blog contains fowl language in a humorous nature*

Okay, so the past 2 days my horoscope has pretty much been all about sex. It tells me that me and my partner will have an amazing night and so on..
Not funny to a single person!
It always talks about me and my partner and how great our love is or could be and then at the end I get the knife in the stomach turned even more. I get something like this: "If you're single curl up with a good book."
When will horoscopes just come out and say it? "curl up with a good book you LONER!"
So today this is what I get:
(according to MSN)
Gemini
May 21 - June 21
***Love is very much in the air today, dear Gemini, so be sure to take advantage of this auspicious environment! Invite your loved one over for an afternoon of play. You could play hide-and-seek under the bed covers! If you do not have a playmate in your life at the moment, find other ways to fulfill the passion you are feeling. Spend the afternoon reading a trashy novel, or invite a friend over to watch a movie with your favorite hot celebrity. Take a break, and clear your system.***
So basically it's telling me to either get fucked or fuck myself.
Thank you MSN. Thank you.

Frustrations...they can never come at a better time

I cannot stand being told that I am not doing anything.
It may look like to you that I'm not. I am. I'm trying very hard. I don't care what you say. I guess if I didn't do it your way it wasn't done right.
Where is the love?
I do not sit on my ass and wait for people to do other things for me. Haven't we gone over this before? (scrolls 4 blogs down)

So I have a car insurance to pay now (OK, saw that coming. Fine.)
plus gas (okay, already been paying gas. and yes, it was more than just $10 or $15. I actually filled the tank all but 1 time (where I did put $15 in because it was on half a tank already.) Fine again, no big deal.) and I owe money for previous bills, not to mention the bills I am still paying today. 1 managed to be paid off completely (that doesn't mean the loaner is but still..).
I have to do all this on a $8an hour wage.
Suggestions, anyone? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller??
Don't say "get another job". I thought about it and it wont fit.

*cue in long exaspperated sigh*

What do you do when you hit a wall? *Besides say "ow!"*
With everything I am trying to do for school and get financial aid sorted and work, it's so frustrating. and don't tell me "that's life" because that shit is getting annoying. How come no one can give me a good answer? Why does it always get brought down to "suck it up" or "that's life"?

Why can I not write or say anything without anyone telling me that I am dramatic?
That right there is annoying.
Writing is my outlet. Deal with it. I think it's easier to write things out. It gets the message across much more clearer. Because to be talking turns into yelling. You not listenening to me turns into me not listening to you.
Don't come at me and then turn around 10minutes later and want something. You hate when I do it. Don't do it to me.

Whatever. It will be over right? Some good will come out of all this right? I'll do something good in someone's eyes won't I? Someone will tell me "good job", "proud of you", "wow, you're great!" someday won't they?

Question is...when?

“Through self-doubt, we lose our sense of self-worth."
-unknown

Fall Beginnings

HAPPY 9/9/09. (Happy Birthday to my brother!)
Fall is upon us. We can now enjoy the days of school and watch the leaves change and fall.
Up here in Virginia the changing of the leaves have begun in some places.
So I am now enrolled until December. 3 classes this semester; 1 online.
History and an English Writing Class take up my Monday and Wednesdays. Concepts of Personal and Community Health is online.
It's a nice schedule that coexists with that of my work schedule (thank God!).
I love school. I don't know why but for some reason I really love being in class. I know that's hard for a student to say but really..I love it. I just hope I don't fall like the leaves!

This Fall I'm going to try and do some photos.

Starting up my amatuer photography again.

I will try and post some of my photos on here. I call it "My Life Through a Digital Camera."

I like to use disposable's because I can hang the pictures in a colage-sort-of-way on my wall.

I'll try and get some pictures up here when I have time.